BLACK SUN, MONOLOGUES

Excerpted from novel by Dennis Cooper
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MONOLOGUE 1

Until then, here's what I want. Love. Specifically, I want the power to make people love me. Maybe a secret word which I'd only use when I saw someone special. I'd walk up to him or her, say that word, and then he or she would be very in love with me. Then, if they ever got bored, there'd be another word that would cancel the spell, wipe their memories clear of me. I could be anywhere, and when I saw someone special, I'd walk up to him or her, say the word, and he or she would forget what they'd planned to do. If I said, "come home with me" they'd follow. We'd be together right now in this very bed.

What could I offer them? Here's a list. Nervous, wealthy, half asleep, cute, confused.. that’s as far as I get. Oh, contrived and talkative. I guess those words would also go in there. Now I am supposed to take that puny list, stretch it out like a tightwire, and walk very slowly across. Or something. I'll probably dream that I am doing so, if I can fall asleep. Then I'll wake up and see this bedroom again. The End. I like how in movies that phrase will suddenly appear at a certain point. Most children worship a statue of some guy nailed on a cross. I worship The End. It's a great concept.

Excerpt from Closer, a novel by Dennis Cooper

MONOLOGUE 2

Your loved held it
in, or vice versa. I
can't tell now, I'm
so turned around.

Things can't hold
things. It's inap-
propriate I guess,
feeling you here.

If you're here, I'm
more myself I think.
It feels real, but I'm
alone in believing

it's you. You don't
feel it when I do,
since you're not me,
though I hold you so

dear, so deep, past
the point of knowing
what's real. There's
something there, but

it's not here. Here's
my thing, a thing
where you're held
all the time, or so it

feels. You shouldn't
have left me alone,
as I said. It makes
you too much of a

thing. Your thing
isn't love. It's here,
but thats mine, not
you. You're there.

Excerpt from Period by Dennis Cooper

MONOLOGUE 3

See that mirror? That's the way into a different dimension. I know it sounds insane but I go there sometimes. Mentally. That what's going on. I wanted to tell you, because I know you think I'm just stoned.

I'm living in two different worlds. I'm here like this, and I'm somewhere else too. In there. A place really different from here. I'm pretty sure one of them only exists in my mind, but I cant tell which one anymore. Because they're both foreign now.

I can make it come or go. I could open the other dimension right now if I wanted. Or I could stay here with you. I'm kind of like a god.

Go on then. Here, I'll hold your hand, If you're worried. I want to see something.

Excerpt from Period by Dennis Cooper